I'm a Lover, Not a Fighter.

David Levithan & John Green, Will Grayson, Will Grayson (via bookmania)

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“…take my whole life too…

Oh, that Elvis….

I feel lost. I feel like my whole life isn’t going anywhere.

So I just watched Once Upon A Times season finale and ugh. It was good and heartwrenching. Why doesn’t Prince Charming actually exist. Please come rescue me.

Went out house hopping between some of my friends houses and ran into Mets. He got me a beer and we started talking. We were both pretty drunk by this point and so he asked me if I wanted to go somewhere quieter and so we walked down the block to his house. So we went in and started talking and I had to go to the bathroom and when I opened the door to leave he was standing in th doorway. He kissed me and pushed me back in and locked the door.
We’ve hooked up a few times and he’s always been the one trying to get into my pants so this time I thought I’d return the favor. Oh. Lord. He is very VERY gifted if you get my drift. Hes tall but not very beefy I guess is the word. But he completely makes up for it. We didn’t have sex but apparently I got the best blowjob ever award.
I’m pretty pleased with myself.

Elizabeth Kim, Ten Thousand Sorrows (pp. 214)

(Source: teethequoter, via jenstrippedtobarebones)

Friday I went out pub crawling. Lumberjack came out to buy me a few drinks, and then take me home at 3am. He walked me up to my door, I was drunk, he came inside, I jumped into a oversized shirt and we kissed goodnight and that was it. It was simple and lovely and he is still an awesome kisser. He was talking at the bar about how he wanted a relationship, and I just want him to pick me already. Ugh.

Pretty In Pink is on and now I feel like crying. My roomate and I got into a bit of a tiff and Ducky is singing and I want someone to sing to me and ask me to prom and love me no matter what and Im feeling super lonely and needy and ugh. This weather is reminding me that bikini season is coming up and I feel like shit about myself which makes me want to eat more which is completely counerintuiive.

To conclude I feel like crap and men are shit.

Last night I went to Band’s aparment. We watched some movies, had a few beers and around 1am crawled into bed. We started talking and before we knew it, it was 530am. I had work at 1130 and he had the day off and we just kept talking, one thing after another. And then his upstairs neighbors started having sex. We could hear the bed against the wall. So we started laughing about it and he goes “two can play that game” and then there we are having sex. Him, not drunk, soo much better. He hates staying in one position for too long so I keep getting flipped around and he’s just going for it.

We won.

=)

So Boston is being a dick. He keeps asking me to “virally cheat” basically, pictures text etc. And I do it but I hate it at the same time. I mean he treats me like shit and then says if him and his girl break up then maybe we’d have a shot and I keep thinking that he’s not bullshitting me when I know he is and I hate him for it.
UGH.

Another year older. Another year wiser.

I feel like tonight will be interesting.